sudafed - the new diet pills

Today I decided to write about my weird sickness, because right now I am waiting for my appetite to return, so that I can eat before I go outside. I am scared that even though I don't feel hungry, I know that my body is lacking in food and it's weak, and I am also prone to faints and such so I don't want to pass out in the middle of the street. Thus, I need to eat! But unfortunately the body is made in a way that when you are not hungry, it is virtually impossible to put anything in your stomach.

At first I thought my lack of appetite was due to my actual sickness. I had a fever, which usually makes you feel kind of oozy inside, definitely not wanting to eat. But then I got better, the fever was gone, and I still couldn't eat. It's troubling me, because I have a very healthy appetite, and I am always walking around hungry in the afternoons because that's how my metabolism works. Two nights ago I sat with my miniature dish of plain pasta and one cut up avocado for an hour and a half, and in the end I couldn't finish it. Yesterday I fried up one potato, which I ate, but then the Greek salad that I made had to be put in the fridge almost untouched. How can a person survive on this? The answer is... apparently, you can. I am still surviving and I even went out last night for a drink and was managing okay.

Today the problem wasn't solved. I am not as sick any more, and yet the appetite is still not here. I ate a piece of bread with cheese for breakfast, but the apple was too much, and now I am sitting trying to keep the apple down because it really wants to come back out. That is why I am still sitting at home. I am waiting for that feeling to pass, so I can eat something else, so that I know I am safe for the day.

I decided it must be the drugs I am taking for this sickness. I bought sudafed in the local pharmacy, just like the usual sudafed you can get in the States (I think....). I've been reading online a lot about it, but it seems that side effects don't include the loss of appetite. However, since the drug in sudafed is a stimulant, this could mean that the stimulant is just keeping my appetite away from me. Basically just like any normal stimulant, it promotes wakefulness and alertness. And diet pills are the same, right? So let's prescribe sudafed to all those mortally obese children in America. Oh god I sound like a crazy evil person. I'm not. I am just going a bit crazy because I am not eating.

To conclude - don't take sudafed kids. Just use the normal nose spray. It works too.
I finished my pack of sudafed, and now I am gonna use another decongestant drug instead, which doesn't have the stimulant substance.

None of this would have happened.... if only the weather in Wales was nicer. Also, can't seem to find tissues without "mint vapours". They do feel nice but they also hurt my skin and my eyes are always watering from them.

Student Union party tonight, I am probably going to use the night bus for the first time! I had a dream tonight that Sasha brought her whole ISP grade to my house, there were a hundred people, and we declared war on some under-developed country. I think my brain has gone insane, or maybe it was always this way. One day I will publish a book about my dreams. All those times I've gone to space, I participated in wars, in alternate dimensions, once I went to heaven... apparently, there are no limits to my dreams.