save your face

I am not going to Robots in Disguise. Why? Because I am completely exhausted, that's why. Besides, I realized I don't even like them that much, and as much as their live performance in Prague was... less than stimulating, an acoustic set would be even less exciting. And on top of it all, I am actually really tired. I need to use this weekend to relax as much as possible, plus I have too many art projects on the way, and I want to finish them this weekend. Plus I have to really clean my room and bathroom because tomorrow I am filming, finally.

Aaaaand I have about 3 videos to finish off, or something like that. I am going crazy. I just carried 4 kilos of stuff and I forgot what it's like to carry weights. Today has been all about carrying stuff. I carried the camera and tripod all the way from Goldsmiths to Dalston, which reminds me:

A tripod is the coolest art accessory you can carry around. The bigger the tripod, the cooler you look.
I totally think so. Everyone looks at you in a different way, like, ohhh you're gonna make some film stuff, you're so cool and artsy and ohhhh hahahha I don't know why but I always feel so proud when I'm carrying a tripod, as if finally the world can see who I really am. I guess. Because carrying around canvases and stuff is just too awkward and uncomfortable. Everyone carries cameras around anyway, so it's not cool, because photography stopped being cool a very long time ago, in my opinion. I guess having paintbrushes in your hair is alright, but a lot of people do it who don't even paint. Carrying music instruments is a bit overdone, at Goldsmiths everyone does it. I also think little art boxes are super cool as well. I have one, and it's almost see-through but it's very colorful from the oil sticks I used to keep in the box my freshman year. I think walking around with one of those is uber cool as well. Unfortunately, I left the box in Bloomington, so I can't carry one around here.

Yeah, this guy knows what he is doing. He's gonna get all the ladies.

This post is kind of turning into worthless words. I guess this is my way of unloading some thoughts that are stuck in my head all day. I've listened to CC+Robert Smith twice on my ipod today, and was really excited. I also thought of a performance art piece which would take place in a very public place, but without people knowing that it's supposed to be a performance piece, only select few. That would be the main idea behind the piece, that people expect you to do something, and partly you will be doing it, but you will also be standing out a lot and messing with their heads a little. But I have no idea how to get this done because it would involve music and I can't do music, at all. And all the people I know that do music would definitely not be up for it. So we'll see when I get back to IWU.

I am loving the fact that I've been wearing my (p)leather jacket for over three months now, and if I was in Illinois right now, I would probably be wearing something more tangible and warm. But here it's perfect. Besides, wearing it makes me feel more like Alice (yeah yeah no post goes without mentioning them and her) or I guess just makes me feel comfortable since it is insanely comfortable. It makes me feel like Alison Mosshart as well, and just a little bit like a punk rocker from the 70s.

Since I am having an argument with someone as I am writing this, the argument being about new wave and I'm trying to explain what it is, as in the music genre, here is Robert Smith:

I wish I was him. Everyone secretly wishes they were Robert Smith.