I am going to tell the world my inner frustration with myself. It takes a lot of courage to do that, but what the hell, it's 11pm on a Sunday, I have to get up in about 9 hours and go to Washington DC and I have literally nothing to do until I fall asleep.
I am incredibly frustrated with my artwork. I hate all my older paintings, not because I think they are bad, but because I can't make those any more, I need to move onto to something new but I haven't found it yet. I don't want to do narrative, figurative or abstract works any more, but then what else is there really, or a combination of all? I hate my ideas and I don't even want to try to execute them because they already seem so stupid to me before I even have time to properly analyze them.
I want to find a way to bring literature and painting together in an unconventional way, but how? In what unconventional way? I don't just want to make illustrated books, and I don't want to make comic books and I don't want to make "word" art either. It is so frustrating to me because I just need to find a new way and I can't. I feel so incredibly useless. I feel like I am deteriorating. I just want to move on.
I guess that dude was right, I am stagnating. It is terrifying to think I will never create anything original or half as good as I want it to be. I think I might have set my own expectations for myself too high. I constantly disappoint myself, nothing is ever good enough any more. I need to figure this out before I completely burn out like a candle. Help me world.
I am incredibly frustrated with my artwork. I hate all my older paintings, not because I think they are bad, but because I can't make those any more, I need to move onto to something new but I haven't found it yet. I don't want to do narrative, figurative or abstract works any more, but then what else is there really, or a combination of all? I hate my ideas and I don't even want to try to execute them because they already seem so stupid to me before I even have time to properly analyze them.
I want to find a way to bring literature and painting together in an unconventional way, but how? In what unconventional way? I don't just want to make illustrated books, and I don't want to make comic books and I don't want to make "word" art either. It is so frustrating to me because I just need to find a new way and I can't. I feel so incredibly useless. I feel like I am deteriorating. I just want to move on.
I guess that dude was right, I am stagnating. It is terrifying to think I will never create anything original or half as good as I want it to be. I think I might have set my own expectations for myself too high. I constantly disappoint myself, nothing is ever good enough any more. I need to figure this out before I completely burn out like a candle. Help me world.
